Unaccustomed to social interaction, Laura is exhausted by
the end of the first day. The workshop is intense, everyone’s brain on overdrive
in the effort to solve complicated linguistic riddles, but also to charm and
engage. No one wants to be left out when the members band together, their idiosyncrasies
laid out alongside tricky idiomatic phrases to wobble and teeter on common
ground until they devolve into knowing looks and inside jokes. Laura poses a
convincing argument in the morning, hears a tongue-in-cheek suggestion fall
flat at midday and, finally, in the late afternoon, provokes one thrilling
outburst of laughter.
Dinner provides an unexpected
shock of high-school-cafeteria angst, which the adult Laura squelches by crossing
to the first empty seat. She is intensely grateful to the woman seated before
her, whose expansiveness cloaks the entire table in a languescent, tipsy camaraderie
that follows them back out to the square. The night is unEnglish, sultry and
blurry-edged. Laura saunters past the pub, follows conversing bodies back
towards the dorm-like rooms. When they reach the green, which the indomitable
heatwave has turned pale brown, Laura finds that only she and Susan are left. They
stand together under the bleary lamplight, transfixed.
“Oh! The bunnies!” she says,
and Susan grabs her wrist.
“Aren’t they marvellous?”
The endless lawn is dotted
with rabbits in various stages of adorability, white tails luminous under the
full moon.
“You know they often hop over
each other in play,” whispers Susan and, as if on cue, three small bunnies race
across the grass and tumble together, hopping and nipping. Laura laughs, then
shivers in the heat. Reluctantly, she and Susan leave the rabbits, and call
parting niceties as they move away.
Laura cranks the window of her
stifling room wide open. A flutter of regret leaves her bewildered, and for the
briefest moment she feels the weight of her solitude drop through her stomach.
When she goes to brush her teeth at the unfamiliar sink, she pointedly ignores
her own reflection.
It sounds like a lovely evening, but all the while a bubble of self-isolation. How beautifully sad.
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My favourite sentence is your fourth, brilliant. Fab description here. Nice job!
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Tickled to hear you have a favorite sentence.
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Many of us can easily relate to the notion of being uneasy in social situations; of being alone among the crowd, of finding comfort in small, shared moments, of being nervous about being accepted and being lonely once it is all over. Not surprisingly, in your talented hands, you have taken this familiar scene and formed it into something extraordinary with your artist's touch. Beautifully done, as your work always is. Thanks for linking up this week, Kymm. :)
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DeleteSorry not to have read you this week - hope you recover quickly from your judgeship.
Last sentence is good. Wraps it up, but gives us pause for thought.
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DeleteI can relate to the feelings of loneliness and isolation at events such as this. It does feel like high school all over again with cliques. I love the way you phase/choose your words, kymm!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you can relate. Yeah, flashes from high school are the pits.
DeleteThank you so much for the love, Gina!
Kudos on your stint as judge - hope you recover quickly!
Kymm (I missed you-and I'm glad to see you back) this was so exquisitely written! The unease and feeling of exhaustion around others, and yet the bewildering regret too-leaving that sense of emptiness.
ReplyDeleteAnd the scene with the bunnies was a brilliant touch!
Valerie!!! You're a one-woman cheering section!
DeleteThanks for always being so enthusiastic. I'm glad you enjoyed it.
I missed you, too. Sometimes I just can't swing the online dedication this takes! Will keep trying...
This is a piece of great writing. I am exhausted having vividly felt Laura's stress and the high school cafeteria metaphor was perfect. Loved the bunnies too!
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DeleteBunnies rule.
You've captured a lot of feelings here nicely. Really nice work
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ReplyDeleteAfter coming home from BlogHer this week, I am reminded that even in the middle of 3000 people you xan feel lonely sometimes.
This was well written, I liked the POV and the ending very much. Thank you for linking up this week.
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Thanks so much, Kir. Glad to hear you liked the ending, too.
You seem to have fully enjoyed your turn as judge! Hope you get to recover!
Oh so true, especially if one is thrust into a summer school/ dorm situation with strangers. Though I love my music week in the Berkshires, for the first few days there is a sense of isolation, making small talk with strangers, with whom you've spent intense class time. By the end of the session, my guess is that Laura will have made some lifelong friends. Well written and insightful.
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I like the range of emotions she encountered - the nervousness about the social aspect, relief in finding a friend, the excitement of sharing the rabbit experience, and the emptiness that comes from nowhere when she's alone in her room.
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I've had that feeling only too recently. But it does get better. I always love how you use words, and the words you use! I wish I had your mastery of vocabulary. "conversing bodies" Simply marvelous indeed.
ReplyDeleteHaha I don't know that I'd call what I have a mastery... but I am glad you enjoy it.
DeleteThanks so much for your wonderful comments, Renada!
Awesome language. Enjoyed it.
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DeleteThanks for the awesome, Aesop!
Beautiful, seamless work, Kymm! Love the way you've captured that sense of an unfamiliar place and Laura's awkwardness with all the social interaction.
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This is lovely, so beautifully written. I love "she feels the weight of her solitude drop through her stomach." And the bunnies--I never knew they hopped over each other playing. This is very atmospheric, too. Excellent work.
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DeleteThanks so much for reading and for your wonderful comments, Elaine!
Really glad to hear this resonates. Thank you so much for your kind words, Jo-Anne!
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